A little over a week ago Logan turned one – wowee! It also marks my one year anniversary of being a Mom! To some that may not sound like a big deal, which I guess in the grand scheme of things one year compared to those who have years and years under their belt (my mom is just about to hit 30 years!) is nothing. However, others will totally understand my bittersweet feelings about this milestone. It is a big deal to me because it was my first year. A year? One whole year? Already? It can’t be true. But it is. People ask me who am I? Why are you here? Well, I am a wife, sister, daughter, aunt, niece, friend, coworker, acquaintance, stranger…but most importantly I am a mom. And that is why I am here. For as long as I can remember I wanted to be a mom. Everyone told me I would be an excellent mother someday, that it was in my DNA, my nickname was Mama Sherrie and strangers would even ask how many kids do you have? I can now proudly say I have one adorable son. 🙂
The last week I have been reflecting on my first year of motherhood. What has changed in me since day 1 to now? Well, here a few of things I have reflected on that I’d like to share:
I am 1,000% more emotional. I have always been an emotional person – just ask my friends and family, but suddenly anything about babies or kids makes me cry – even happy stuff. Give me a newborn to meet? Instant tears. See a Dad pushing his kid in a stroller? Instant tears. See a family laughing on the playground? Instant tears. If it includes my own son, tears are a given. I cried when I asked the lady a Toys R Us for his birthday balloon and crown – everything just gets my emotions flowing!
It is true when they say you are your own worst enemy. Yes, Logan was mostly formula fed and we put him into daycare and occasionally we purchased baby food. Those are just a few things that made me feel guilty. All of it weighed heavily on me and I would think, why didn’t I breastfeed longer? Why didn’t I plan to stay home and watch him? Why didn’t I wake up earlier to make more food? Now a year later – forget it. I don’t feel guilty because I was doing what was best for my family at the time. In order to take care of someone else, you need to take care of yourself first! If you’re child is happy and healthy then do not feel guilty or let anyone make you feel guilty for any decision you make as parent. You are doing great!!!
Before I was a mom, and I think most would agree, you have in your head the exact type of parent you will be. A year ago I might have thought to myself, oh my how could that mom do that?! I will never do that when I am a mom! Now I get it. You do what is best for your family and your child. If there is one thing certain about motherhood it would be you cannot 100% plan for what will happen – expect the unexpected is my motherhood motto. I will never judge another mother for her decisions on how she chooses to raise HER child. Just like I don’t want you to judge me on how I am raising mine.
Love for My Husband
The love for my husband since I have become a mom has grown exponentially. I never had a doubt that my husband would love our son and be an excellent father. If it weren’t for him I wouldn’t be the mother (or a mother at all haha) I am today. He is the glue that holds our family together and he is my rock to lean on. Sure we have our bad days, but what couple doesn’t? Becoming parents has made our love and bond that much stronger. One of my favorite things this past year was watching him be a Dad. <3
Respect for My Mother
My mom is a supermom. She has been there for me since Logan’s first breath. She has really showed me the ropes a lot this first year. I can count on her anytime, any day. She is my leading example of the mother I want to be. In the last year I have grown a lot more respect for my mother as I now understand what it takes to be a Mom – it really is the hardest job you’ll ever have! She raised 3 kids and it did not come without several obstacles. Mom, you’re the best and I appreciate everything you do for us and Logan!
This last year of my life has been my absolute hardest year yet but it has also been the most rewarding and joyful year. I take such pride in being able to say I am a Mom. I just can’t believe one year has gone by already – it went by way too fast! I would like to wrap up by saying thank you to everyone who has helped us this last year. Whether your help was big or small, it means a lot. It really is true what they say – it does take a village!!! I hope this Mother’s Day you take the time to reflect on your journey as a mom whether that journey has been a few days, weeks, months, or years. Now get out there and treat yourself Moms – you all deserve it! 🙂